I need to acknowledge how hurt I feel right now. I have contributed to my being hurt. I've ignored the nudges and as a result been given a bitch slap.
I would like to own the following. I willing continued in a relationship where I knew the man meant me no real good. Any man that only wants you around on his time table, means you no good. Any man that reels you in only when you are trying to separate means you no good. Do not allow yourself to be reeled back in, this man means you no good. If he only can find time for you after dark he means you no good. Worst of all knowing he was sleeping with and going out other women and still I persisted. I sat there and accepted all of this and more. And when the time came for him to make a choice I was not even a consideration.
Why did I accept this?? That's what I need to figure out. I am really so desperate for a mans attention/love, that I willingly and knowingly accepted less than what I know I was worth. That's why I'm so hurt now.
I never knew that emotional pain could translate to physical pain.
I need to continue breathing
